Saturday, 13 October 2012

Finding closure


The Uni experience is over for me - it is time to move on
My life has changed massively throughout 2012 and I knew that was going to happen at the start of the year.

When I left University and Northampton behind in June of this year, it felt sad.  A chapter full of colourful memories was being closed for good.

Recently, I went back to Uni to collect all the work that had been marked over the summer, leading to the confirmation of my 2:1 final classification grade for the BA Hons Journalism course I had been on.

Weird being back
It felt really weird being back inside the institution and the town that I had practically lived in since 2009.  Walking past my old address and seeing the curtains open at the room I used to rent for two years felt odd.

Strolling down the pathway, walking across the Racecourse (the day name for the park on St. George’s Avenue), and memories came flooding back of the Uni experience.

I have some great times to look back over and I’m sure that if I ever wrote an autobiography on my life (unlikely but never say never), this chapter might well be the easiest. 

It was nice to see some of the lecturers who had guided me through the challenges a degree throws at you and it does push you to the brink.  I experienced that feeling at least twice.

I updated them on the progress and the desire of trying to make that crucial breakthrough for my future.

Chances are slim
I hadn’t been back to Northampton after graduation day and that had been slightly frustrating.

The chances of going back there on a night out look slim to say the least and it felt like the long goodbye was finally over.  It was something that had started back in April when my dissertation was handed in and it WAS now over.

In a way, it was a good thing to finally find some closure.  I miss the Uni days a lot and although I have been keeping myself busy with lots of unpaid work, the comforts of dependable independence, student loans and clubbing nights with coursemates are areas that still were being missed, greatly in some quarters.

Now I know that it is all over.  It is difficult to let something go and in my view admittedly, it has taken longer to readjust to another life.

The life I had between September 2009 and May 2012 won’t ever be forgotten but time doesn’t stand still and it is definitely time to move on.

An unforgettable experience
UoN gave me some tough times but also some great memories
Collecting all my work (being the first student to do so apparently too…) felt like all my business in Northampton had been concluded.  No need to pester, beg or annoy people.  I probably had been doing that all summer and in some areas, throughout the journalism course.

11 days have passed since I was briefly back.  While it is difficult to say that I will definitely never return to Northampton – it did give me some great times and who knows what the future holds.

I might be back in the town in some capacity down the line, though that is likely to be flying visits than anything else.

So, it brings a conclusion to what was an unforgettable experience.  I am delighted I went to embrace the University culture and although I wasn’t the easiest person to understand or know, I hope I left my mark on some people and won’t be forgotten.

I have now found closure.  The Uni life is over but as one chapter comes to a satisfying and emotional conclusion, a new one will begin because that is what life is all about.

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